I have been doing A LOT of reflecting and it seems to me that everything in the past 6 years has been to prepare me for this. In learning how to live without drugs and alcohol, and to change my irrational belief systems, and behaviors, I have been prepared to be a better son, friend, brother, cousin, nephew, and finally partner. And now I get to be someone’s dad. Wow… that just blows my mind. That God, Allah, Mother Nature, the Universe, Janet Jackson, whoever is your higher power, trusts me with this little soul. The fact that something about me was worth saving, and now something about me is WORTHY of being someone’s dad… it’s mind blowing and humbling to say the least.
I know the last two posts have been pretty heavy. Thanks for sticking in there.
19 weeks and BEYOND Gorgeous!