I was thrown off by how far she really was into it because between contractions Megan was laughing and telling jokes. As soon as we got to the Birthing Inn Megan got into the birth tub. Our AMAZING midwife Amy was oozing out calm and serenity, and I am pretty sure this is ALL that kept Tony and I sane. I kept looking at Megan in the tub and thought to myself “OH MY GOD! This is actually happening! In moments I will be a father.”
From there time sped up, Megan was like a SUPER HERO! I have to admit that when the baby started to make her entrance I did not even know what was going on, because Megan’s head never spun around, she never spit split pea soup out of her mouth, nor did she cuss or punch either one of us (even though I totally volunteered Tony!!! So when Zoey came swimming into the world I turned to Tony and said “Wait! Is this happening RIGHT now?” I hadn’t even called our parents yet.
As Amy placed Zoey on Megan’s chest I heard Megan say, with pure love in her voice “That’s your daughter! Mike Tony, there she is!” And as I saw her face for the first time my heart almost hurt with the love I felt. People try and tell you about the love o f a parent. They try and prepare you, but nothing prepared me for that moment. Had I not already been on my knees at the tub I am sure they would have buckled.
Tony cut the cord and they placed her in my arms. Tears began streaming down my face. This was what it has all been about. Every experience I have ever had was in preparation for this moment; the day I became someone’s dad. Not just someone, but this perfect baby. Tony came over and looked at both of us with tears running down his face and said “Baby we’re a family”.
I think the only moment that comes CLOSE to when I first held her, is when I handed her to her Papa for the first time. Seeing my husband and daughter together was something I had been waiting for.
Megan is recovering well. We are coming to the end of our transition period. Tomorrow we will all go home. As much as I am looking forward to having Zoey in our own home, I am going to miss Megan being in the very next room. Thankfully we are all bound together now and I will see her all the time. She has a huge part of my heart.
This is my life now. I am a husband and a father. I have a family and I cannot believe how blessed I am. So when I hold my daughter at 4 a.m, after only minutes of sleep all night long, I am smiling. I am smiling because THIS is what I have dreamt of and it is so much better than I ever could have imagined..