The early days.
Being in love with him, developing our relationship, and growing our family hasn’t always been easy. There are days when I have wanted to strangle him (of course from his perspective I am sure I have only ever been kind and loving). However, it has always been worth it. I never knew it was possible to love someone like I love him. And now we get to raise this perfect, beautiful, amazing little girl together. She will be smart, funny, and her heart will be capable of so much empathy and compassion because of her amazing father.
Love at first sight
Tony is this big giant beefy guy. He doesn’t understand how is jeans are supposed to fit, why his shoes need to match his shirt, or why the clothes that he LOVED in the 90s are not appropriate for anything other than costume wear today. He likes football and military history documentaries… he is the epitome of “butch”… and Zoey and I own his heart.
Tony always positions himself between me and strangers on the street. Now that Zoey is here he is like our very own Body Guard (Think Kevin Costner) or Secret Service Agent. On our first walk with Zoey in the stroller, a squirrel made the mistake of coming within 30 feet of us, Tony showed him who was boss by chasing away the “danger”. “Just in case the rat got the wrong idea”. Later when we got home he pulled out a giant hammer from his inside coat pocket!! Because some dog might have attacked us! I know it seems over protective, and maybe it is. The truth is Tony will mellow out, BUT he will always protect his baby with everything he has.
I feel like I am falling in love with him all over again. I watch this GIANT man so completely enraptured with this tiny little girl, and my heart is full. I watch his huge paws ever so gently undresss her for bath, change her diaper, or pat her back as he burps her. I can only barely hear the murmuring of his voice as he smiles and shares secrets with his daughter, but I can tell that whatever he is saying is utterly fascinating to her. When he sings lullabies to her she snuggles in and just looks at him as if her is made of chocolate.
And then there are the moments where she is in his arms and we make eye contact over her head and smile, knowing that we made this family. I know that he loves her as much as I do, that he will protect her with his very life. There is a new kind of magic in that. I love him even more than I did before, and if you had told me that would be the case before Zoey was born, I would have told you it was impossible to love him more then I did then… and I was so wrong.